Temptation is and always will be a woman's weapon.

littlemissashlynn:

Every time I’ve made the decision to give up on you, I will hesistate eventually.

Cause I’m afraid if there’s really one day you turned back to look for me, and you found out that I’ve already left, you would leave too.

Or maybe everything is just my wishful thinking. Indeed.

(via msvindicta)

(Source: runawaytrain, via msvindicta)

Afraid of you,
you asked me why.

There was nothing I could have said.
All I could do was to bury myself into your arms.

Letting it all go.

He used to hold me that way and told me he’ll never hurt me.
You’re holding me the same way.

I trust you.
Like how I used to trust it all.

Don’t hurt me.

I’ve enjoyed myself so much the past weeks, that I didn’t dare believe it was true.

I’ve found you.
It’s as though, I’ve finally found someone who understands me completely.
We could talk for hours, days, weeks.
Hang out, drink, talk or just sit in silence, comfortable to know we’re together.
It was something i was never able to have.
Just knowing you care was enough.
Just knowing you meant what you have ever said, was enough.

But banana,
Dreams are meant to be woken up from.

你走吧.

Sometimes, it’s easier holding on the the pain, the hurt.

Than to start all over again.

Because now.
I’m afraid to try.
I know you’ll hurt me the same way he did.

And i’ll not even give you the chance to start.

Yeah,

To: 3 of you.
Your smses, msn messages, everything.
Makes me cry.
You guys mean alot to me, and knowing i’m not going through this alone.
I love you all.
(:

To: s,d,r,r.
I’ve been a bitch.
I’ll come out of this.
r, msging ‘1 of the 3’ means so much to me.

All, probably, won’t read this.

But,

To know you guys are creating the bubble i can retreat right back into.
I’m blessed.
Beyond anything, to have all of you.

incapacityinc:

I always thought people lie to avoid causing pain. I thought people lie to hide a hurtful truth. But it seems you lie to cause pain. You lie to hurt me. You know the truth would hurt me a lot less than all the lies you tell. You know. You just don’t care. You love to lie, more than you love me. You lie even if you have no reason to lie. You lie even if I already know the truth. You lie because you can. That hurts. 

‘I would lie to you again’, you say. The truth at last. 

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can’t breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It’s like I’m in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I’m leaving you
No you ain’t
Come back
We’re running right back
Here we go again
It’s so insane
Cause when it’s going good
It’s going great
I’m Superman
With the wind in his bag
She’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad
It’s awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who’s that dude
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her
I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you’re with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit ‘em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get ‘em
Now you’re getting fucking sick
Of looking at ‘em
You swore you’ve never hit ‘em
Never do nothing to hurt ‘em
Now you’re in each other’s face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit ‘em
You push
Pull each other’s hair
Scratch, claw, bit ‘em
Throw ‘em down
Pin ‘em
So lost in the moments
When you’re in ‘em
It’s the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it’s best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It’s a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin’ over
But you promised her
Next time you’ll show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn’t mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper’s just as bad
As mine is
You’re the same as me
But when it comes to love
You’re just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn’t you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed
I’ll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I’mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Dropped off your keys last night,
The front door still unpainted.
You were polite like ice,
I, once could met it.
You took our pictures down,
And you left them on the ground
Its like you wiped all the memories,
Of what we used to be…
You and me, before it all crashed down.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don’t know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don’t want to leave this way.
All I know,
Is broken.

I heard your voice break, when you said,
“well I hope you’re happy”.
Nothin’ to say, I’ll stare, straight into my coffee.
Then the conversation changed,
How we talked around the blame,
And the pain of losing.
All of the good times lost,
When it all crashed down.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don’t know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don’t want to leave this way.
All I know…
Is broken.

Well I’m here if you need me,
I know you don’t believe me.
well I’m so sorry,
For all the pain I’ve caused.
Ho-oohhhhh…

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don’t know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don’t want to leave this way.
All I know…
Is broken.

Ho-oh…

No more broken promises.

(:

I’m sure of what I want in life.
And that’s ‘No more broken promises’.

If you had cared,
would you have beared to hurt me?
If you had cared,
would you have chosen to break my trust?
If you had cared,
would you have not taken the chance to know me?
If you had cared,
would you have respected my needs to keep things to myself?
If you had cared,
would you have just showed me instead of telling me you care?
If you had cared,
would this have ever ended up this way?

If only.
If only I can trust you again.
If only I can believe that you really do care.

For now,
it’s over.

For now,
you broke my trust.

And I can’t get over that.